Friday, June 3, 2011
Well Ive been doin good for a while. Since I started this Abilify again things have been real good. Im fighting with another thing. Im absolutly obsessing over things. Not that im losing it but I cant get it out of my head. There is a phone that I want. When I ask my wife if its ok if I can get it she tells me that I should wait till Fathers Day. I can appreciate that but when I want something that bad, I cant get it out of my head. Im sweating and shaking. This is rediculus. I know that this is another side effect of depression and BP but DAMNIT. Its not her fault its mine, I think. Im tired of the phone that I have and I want to upgrade to something that is more current and is up to date. FUCK this is killng me. I wish this kind of shit didnt happen to me and noone else. The answer could be to get messed up but I know that is not the answer. Those days are over. I dont know what to do???????????