Well its been a few days since i posted last. Im really fucked up. I cut up my arm with a razor and a pumis stone. It felt good at the moment but then my wife saw it. I have had to try to make up stories of why I have a bandage on my arm. My mom knows why without asking. My wife knows what i did. To everyone else its a lie. I dont know why I did it I just did. Im not happy. Its not my wifes fault or anyone elses. Im scared of myself. I dont want to work or play or do anything. I dont know what to do.