Well things suck right now. I feel like shit. My boss is scared for me and my Dr wants me to look into electro therapy. Im not saying that im not gonna do it but i need to find out the price and other things. Ive been down for weeks now and had my first taste of feeling well. It didnt last long. Yesterday I almost crumbled. I cried during my conference call and all day as I cut meat. I dont know what to do about my job. My wife and my son are the only people keeping me alive wether they realize it or not. I dont care if anyone reads my posts but I have to get this shit off of my chest. Im in trouble in my own mind.