6-29

     Well first day back at work since my hospital visit. I feel like crap but I need to get back to work. Spasms are slight but hurt. Pulled a bunch of muscles in my back so its gonna take time I guess. Crap happens.
     Dr. asked if I wanted to start another SSRI but im very nervous. Not right now. Enough meds for now. 2 Dex., Lamictal, and Valium. Just need to recover I guess.

6-21

I guess somehow ya need to laugh at life. As much as I would love to change things I cant. Started on Paxil today.  lets see what happens.

Whatever

     Dont know who may read any of this. Important for me just to get shit out of my head and out. If anyone does read this and/or participates in this blog, I thank you. Discussion would be great. When you dont know the other person its easier to truly open your soul up. Therapy. I was just thinking about this blog, thats all. It would be great for participation. Thanks to all that have subscribed. Its an open forum for those that monkey wrapped around ya......depression, addiction, whatever. I personally am, as Justin Furstenfeld from Blue October says "Im an open book". Thanks guys!